Dear Self,
I know you are getting very tired..and slowly and slowly have begun to start wondering where all this will end and where all this will take me..
I know that you want to break the cycle and get away...
I know that you want to be loved and made to feel good...

I know today you are lying awake at nights thinking whether there will be one day of peace and the sun will finally shine on you..
I know self you are turning 36 soon and you do not still know whether that is good or bad..

The days are passing and very quickly I am beginning to believe that it will take a lot more effort than the one I have put into you self.
London has started to get cold again. Its beginning to make its feel by the chill in the air..
The sun is shining a lot less and the days seem to be growing shorter.. and more depressing..
And I know that you are really worried about the changes that have been there recently and in recent past...
For the moment you would want it to go slow so that you could take a bit of rest...
A rest where you really dont have to think or secure yourself but only rest,,,